my pain with no gain

i don't know where to begin, so much pain in my heart..

with fear in my heart i dare to tell u my pains, is there still a saint on earth who would paint my world n keep my faith so i do not faint.. my heels re sore, i have no wheels but i look up to d hills, u don't know how it feels with the ills n no pills to heal.. i have desires not for empires but for an end to vampires n wild fires.. THIS IS MY PAIN WIT NO GAIN.

   i am an African child, an average child who strives to keep her dreams alive, a child who strives so that her dreams do not become her nightmares.. A child who sees d light even when d candle burns at both ends.. A child who sees d glass half full even when its half empty.. A child who smiles when d miles re long n rough.. I am an African child..

  U gave me wisdom only to make me see how foolish i am... U gave me sadness, to make me see haw happy i cant be... 

U gave me ,MADNESS, PAIN, HATRED... 

Wat other other thing has tis world offered me? NOTHING!!! 

Its cruel n empty.. 

My mind is full of racing tots, d type DAT leaves u silent.. 

D barriers in my tots block me frm forgetting, so i sit here waiting for world to swallow me... 

Waiting for d day when my fears n anguish would become dead.... 

Its like walking through a blanket of darkness... 

Its like looking through a tunnel with a non existent light... 

Waiting for a miracle dat nvr comes.. 

Waiting for it to snow in d Sahara.. 

Waiting for D birds to carry me home.. 

Waiting... Waiting... Just waiting... 

IT NEVER ENDS...